hi
it was a very long time since i stopped blogging
in fact, the last blog was ughhh..kids sangat hee
this time around, it will be more on matured stuff, more on life
what makes me decided to start 'writing' is that i feel like i need to expose everything in my heart
yeah, blogging is more like an online diary
perhaps, people can learn something from our story right?
so here goes my first love story =)
...
in 2009, i met this one guy through fb
i would say everything happened quite fast
like suddenly, o yeah, i have a boyfriend!
our relationship lasts for only two years
we were so closed, friends got confused of our relationship
btw, my close friends never ever like him since he made me cried like..all the time lol
what to do mehh? LOVE
since he was my first boyfriend
hell yeah, i shipped him too much
but after the breakup, we were so close
went to shopping together and so on
we met each other every week mannnnnn
most of the time, he would be the one that asked me to teman him shopping
btw, he dont know how to drive
so i'm the driver lol
what to do mehh? LOVE
then i am the person that would accompany him to interviews
i still remember, at that time
it feels like, i'm going to live with this person for the rest of my life
of course i would do anything right?
stupid me lol
what to do mehh? LOVE
still remember, it was very hot that one day
he was in the office for interview
i was left outside, in the car
like seriously, it was damn hot!!
of course i would turn off the engine and open the window
but this time, the weather just worst grrr
he even asked "nape berpeluh2 ni"
this situation not only happened once, but a couple of times
everytime he went for interview
i would be by his side
what to do mehh? LOVE
oh yeah, he's a type of person that very lazy one to go to cafe
he never like crowded places
with lots of people around haha
so i was the person to tapau his makan
my friend always got mad at me for always tapau-ing for him
what to do mehh? LOVE
o yah, he never go out with other girls
other than me
same with me, he was the only guy
that i will considered as a date haha
what to do mehh? LOVE
there are lots to tell
but nevermind
what to do mehh? LOVE
the worst part happened right after my final semester
he would keep on saying like
"cari keje kat johor la"
since he work there
then "cari keje kat kl je la.saye cari keje kat kl kot"
i was like oh, okay
whatever he said it is always okay
hey, when a man keeps on repeating the same thing
girls will think like, are you gonna be with me
you like me is it?
marry?
what to do mehh? LOVE
he asked me to hurry up to find a job
"cepatlah teman saye"
"bile nak datang sini"
but everything is Allah's plan
yeah, i am still unemployed
for 3 months
this is where the problem starts =')
yes, he's an engineer now
the one that i was in the car on a very damn hot day
yes, he got the job
time flies, everything changes
he change, a lot
yeah, when you have like lots lots of money
who cares an unemployed girl like me
yes, now he ship other girl
i believe i know who she is
maybe that system engineer girl
he even said that he's going to marry next year
with a girl, his friend, that knows me
it hurts, really hurt me
i would cry every night thinking about him
why did i waste my time on him during my uni life
i gave him everything
my time
my feeling
my love
everything
actually, what i want to tell is that for girls out there
especially the one who's still studying
there are no concrete reason for you to couple
to be in a lovey-dovey relationship
i learnt a lot from this horrible relationship
its better to focus on study
rather than waste your time on a jerk, a douche bag
...
to mr syed
saye dah habiskan smue tenaga and perasaan saye 3 tahun
habis semua keringat saye awak perah
saye ingatkan awk nak saye
tapi rupenye awak cume amik kesempatan
hilang dah tenaga saye
penat..kalau fikir confirm nangis
macam mane awak boleh saye suruh saye cari keje kt jb? kt kl?
ape motif untuk saye cari keje jauh2
dekat ngan awak?
tapi skang awak dgn pmpuan lain, so untuk ape lah?
bile rezeki saye belum sampai, awak marah2
sedangkan saye berpanas berpeluh2 teman awak pegi iv 3-4x, saye x complaint
awk mintak tapau saye tapau
saye xkol, awk marah
tapi penghujungnye, awk mempergunakan saye je
saye nak luahkan semue ni kat awak tapi saye takut
sbb awak akan cakap saye teruk & bodoh..mcm biase
keringat saye dah habis
dah penat sbb semue dah habis kat awk
kadang2 saye terfikir nak doa buruk2 untuk awk
tapi saye belajar satu ayat
KUN FAYA KUN
bila Dia hendak jadikan begitu, begitulah
maka saye terima
dgn berat hati saye terime ape yg awk dh buat dkt saye
saye belajar sikit2 dalam Islam
maafkan lah seseorang, baru hati rase tenang
baru boleh khusyuk solat
insyaAllah, saye cube
step by step
sbb saye bukan alim ulama, hati saye kotor
dah penuh dgn geram, dendam
saye simpan ayat
KUN FAYA KUN
dalam hati saye
balasan dunia, akhirat, itu urusan Allah
Allah Maha Mengetahui, Allah Maha Besar
insyaAllah
Allah akan permudahkan utk saye
